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Juz read Kailing's blog, poor girl... Her father had admitted into hospital and is in ICU. Hope her father will get well soon. People tend to cherish more when they lose something. Its so sad.. >. Many of us take things for granted. No one knows what will happen tomorrow. Though, we tend to say that, we never really cherish every minute we spent or really care for those who are dear to us. When my grandpa died of cancer three years ago, it was a blow everyone. Whenever I visited him, he seemed to be suffering sliently. I din even get to see him the last time.

Yeah!!! I pass my basic theory ... I thought that I would fail... Now too happy until cannot sleep.. Haha.. Mmm... I dunno if I want to proceed to my advanced or wait for Esther. Jasmine ask me to proceed straight to advance cos we no need to pass advance to do the practical. Frankly speaking, I feel like proceeding straight to advanced as it is much more difficult. Haiz... I also dunno leh.. Aiyoh.. my handphone bill shot to $54. Damn it!! Muz because of the day that I distribute flyers... That stupid salesperson call me so many times as if I'm very rich... Now I'm having cashflow problem.. Have to pay handphone bill, buy Esther's present and S200 etc.. Somemore on Esther's birthday, still have to go out to celebrate, then need money again. I also dunno how long my handphone can last... JUz now drop it and still "wu ma feng shi". Very "xin tong"... Sometimes auto off by itself...

Got my results back.. Just when I play Wish, the results came. So coincident.. Actually quite disappointed.. Especially my A/cs.. Put in so much effort yet in the end got a D+. The happy thing is that I got a C for MS. My Maths is super duper lousy and now can still get a C, already not bad liao.. The rest of the subjects are either C or C+. In short, my results are not very good. In fact it had already fall drastically. Next year cannot sleep during lessons or else really have to retake my module.. Went shopping spree with Kailing. Before that, we went to the temple beside OG Albert to pray.. Heard that the temple quite "ling"... I'm also not sure. Din really believe in such things.. After that, we went to "my heaven" (OG Albert) to shop. Why I call there heaven"? Actually before poly, I went there to work.. Its quite relaxing though. But I got a lot of complaints cos I keep running away from my counter. At there, you can find different types of people....

What is the difference between dating and courtship?... Are they similar? I have been cracking my brains over this question for a long time.. But I can be very sure that they are the best times before a relationship starts. A guy can do what the girl wants.. For example, if the girl suddenly crave for a certain food, the guy would go all out to buy it for her. But when the guy won the girl's heart, things will be the other way round. In my case, calling and smsing seems to be my job.. He won't call me unless there's something urgent or he wanted to remind me about something. Smsing? In the past, we at least still SMS each other once in a day, asking how each other is doing or if we had eaten. Now? I give up smsing him.. As time pass, the number of times we SMS to each other drops almost to zero.. Enough of that.. I'm sure one day I'll find the answers. Juz came back from my shopping. Feel a little "bu gan yuan". Cos didn't buy anything... Actually, I...

Juz now papa told me that we won't be having warm water for bathing... How am I going to endure it?.. Some more the weather is turning cold towards the end of the year. Looks like I have to take my bath early.. To a very super duper lazy bum like me, taking an early bath seems to be an impossible task. Arh.. I know someone is going to say me... What to do? I'm born to enjoy life... Haha.. To me, enjoying life = able to sleep and eat to my fullest... Haha.. Am I a super duper lazy pig to all of you? Erm.. later going to KTV to celebrate Kailing's birthday.. Talking about her birthday, I still haven't prepare her present yet.. All that Dionne's fault la.. If not for her, I can give her the present by today.. Mmm.. To be continued... I'm back... Went to KBox with Kaizhong, Yihua and Yan Rong.. We had a great time over there.. Kailing and I sing "xuan zhe"... Suppose to be a duet but end up two girls singing.. The feeling very weird especially on the p...

My blog finally came back.. For the past one week, I have been trying all my means to save the blog but nothing seems to turn out right. It was when I was about to give up, it came back... =) or else I have to go back and write into my diary. Erm.. Compare to writing, I still prefer typing... Feel so much easier... Yesterday went down to Orchard to distribute flyers... Bloody hell!!! That job was not for humans to do... That sales executive give us four stacks of flyers. Each stack has two thousand flyers in it.. Can you imagine how heavy it was for a girl to carry four thousand flyers... Luckily Charles and Mervyn help us to carry one stack or else my cousin and I would be at wits end... Although there was two hours break for us, it seems that there is no break at all. We had to carry those stupid flyers around.. Suddenly the stretch of Orchard road seems to be like never ending.... We even threw some as we walked. Some even dropped on the roads.. Imagine how pathetic we were.. I...

Yeah!!! Exams finally over lo... SO happy.. Got a lot movies that I want to watch like Wishing Stairs, Uptown Girls etc.. Juz now went to Hougang Mall to check out the price of S200. $248 plus trade-in and upgrading of plan.. Haha... Feel even more happier =D Today SCM, actually I know how to do but too careless, write wrong answer. Always soooooo careless... Hopeless! Then got one question, but not sure what it is asking about. Later I heard from my friends that the answer is from lecture one. It was then I realized that I KNOW HOW TO DO !!! Some more so easy. ARGH.... 19 marks fly away liao... Since exam over, then dun about it anymore.... Today I went Ubi to register for my basic theory.. The test date is on 12 Nov... Got a feeling that I'll fail sia... Cos I only have little time for me study.. Some more I'm so forgetful.. Can forget things easily... If really pass, still have to take advanced. Then can take practical.. Talk until so far. Dun even know have the money t...

It has been a week since I wrote my thoughts down here. Still had one my exam to go... Haiz.. No "pertrol" liao.. Today's OM exam really difficult... 15 marks gone le. Thought can maintain as B, now dunno can get a D or not. Haizz..... Recently also cum across a webbie, Friendster. Quite amazing sia.. I can easily find my sec sch mates. Suddenly seems to be so close to them again. Miss those days very much.. especially when I was in Sec 2. So many beautiful memories... My class was quite mischevious then. Even my form teacher told us that Sec 2/5 was a "branded" class. Being punished by teachers seems to be a daily routine to them. My form teacher even let us choose the way we want to be punished. Mmm.. enough of those talks... Got to go.. Will update when I'm free...

Aiyoh.. I have oredi gone crazy after studying accounts for so many days. Actually today plan to stay @ home and study. At first, I thought that my house got renovation going on and the noise is damn piercing. *Annoyed* But to my surprise, it actually ended yesterday. That means I can stay @ home and study. But to my dismay, I left all my notes @ Charles's place and the thought of Sebrina also studying with us, makes me feel moody. I juz simply dun like her. I don't know why. Got to go now.. Continue tonight.

eLoz.... Finally can sit in front of my computer lo.. Cos my computer spoil liao. Hee.. Hee.. Got lots of things to update. Mmm.. Where should I start? For the past few days, my bro kept blaming me that I spoil the computer. But the fact is, it is not my fault. In fact I really dunno what's really going on! All I had done was downloading an application from the Microsoft website, & then it restart automatically and cannot get into the windows. Actually earlier on, the computer had already gone "haywired". Sometimes have to restart twice in order to get into windows.. Haiz... Mmm.. Enough of my computer stuff.. Got my coursework grades last week. Quite surprise though. Got C+ for my MS and B for my OM. Can't really believe it!! But my SCM got a D+. I only fell asleep twice in the tutorial and then that Tan Boh Chuan give me until so low. But on the hand, I always skip his lectures =P so can't blame him too much. Feel a little disappointed for my MA. I din do...

Being one's boyfriend or girlfriend is not that easy. Its not all about love. One has to accommodate and understand the other. For my case, I think I have a lot of accommodating to do. Its not that I don't want to change. There are a lot of things for me to change and I can't possibly change into another person in such a short time. The first thing I wanted to change is stop being jealous of Sebrina. It is not an easy task because earlier on I also had been jealous of another person and I took about half a year to "do away the green eye monster". Secondly, I also have been trying hard to be happy so as not to make him think or worrry too much. He hates me for crying so easily but to me it might be a fast way of releasing all my unhappiness. Being reprimanded or getting a scolding can make me cry like hell. An egg can perfectly describe me. Looks hard on the outside but watery and soft in the inside.

Yippy... Finally finish my MS assignment lo. Now can concentrate on preparing for exams. I have to work very hard especially on my MS (the subject I hate most & also the subject I fare most badly). Today, Esther ask me if i regreted choosing Logistics. I reply her without thinking. I told her I regreted gettin' into a business course. Well seriously, I also dunno if I regreted. I had tried to like this course but is like nothing interest me. Sometimes, I think that I'm much more luckier than Dionne, Esther and Kailing. They seemed to be so stressed out while I'm so "carefree". I dun dare to think what I want to do after gettin' diploma. I heard that in Logistics line, it is quite stressful. Actually my dream job is something related to food. No matter what is it about. As long as it concerns about food (cos I like to eat). Since young, I have been changing my ambition. From scientist to lawyer etc... It was till when I'm Sec 3 that I knew what I want w...

Haiz... Dunno how to do my MS assignment analysis. My topic is on linear programming. Very hard sia.. I'm so lousy @ that topic.. Tomorrow tell them that I dun understand then can't do it.. But feel very bad abt it cos din contribute much.. =( Still have a lot of things haven't do yet. Haiz.............

Yesterday I made Charles very angry. Feel very very bad about it. I wan to say SORRY . I have to say that I can easily get into a very depressing mood which can last for several days. After a few hours of thinking, I think I know what led me into this state. Well honestly speaking, I'm a person who can get jealous easily. So easily that no one will notice and I just kept quiet about it. I must say that I'm always jealous of Sebrina. I don't know why of all so many people, I choose to be jealous about her. No matter how hard Charles explain to me, the feelings is still there. I guess I just need time to get over it. But it would be a very long long time. I don't know how long it would take. Now I'm afraid that history will repeat itself. I still remember vividly that when I was in Sec 3, I went through the worst days of my life. At that time, almost everything had gone wrong. From relationships to studies.. My relationships with my parents and my ex were very bad...

Long time din update le.. Cos bro's Os coming so din often use the computer. Muz let him study... Now having MS tutorial.. But always din pay attention. Juz now being called up to do one question. Mr Koh asked me to test the unoccupied squares. But I was still abit blur.. so do untill very messy =( That time, I can sense that he's abit impatient. Now I feeling very sad... Actually I know how to do one... but juz give me abit more time.. >. Later going Orchard with Kailing to buy Kaizhong's present. Dunno wat to buy for him. Haiz... Have to go now... Will be continuing tonight... Juz came back from Orchard.. Its a really tiring day for me. We walked from Heeren to FarEast and back to Heeren again... Din brought much things. But luckily got buy Kaizhong's present. Bought him a Zara tee. I spend most of my money buying food like Corochan, Bread Papa etc.. Finally brought my highlighters (only can be found @ Kinnokuniya) =) During shopping, I also keeping a lookout...

I feel really disappointed... Juz now went to M1 (@Tampines Mall) to ask how much should I pay in order to buy S200 (provided i trade in my 8250 & upgrade my plan). The guy told me that they would not be selling S200. Now where should I get it?.. Somehow, I feel that it is really hard to find but I will try all means to find and buy the handphone. Sob...

My mood for today is not really good. But I dunno how to xplain it. I tend to have mood swings every now and then. Juz came back from Wei Liang's chalet. Luckily Esther didn't go or else she will feel more awkward than me cos there alot of people i dunno and i'm not that sociable. Juz now ask mum if she can help me pay for the hp first but she din say much abt it. Looks like the answer is most likely to be negative. When can I get my S200?.... Now even when I see the things I like, I also cannot buy... Have to save money.. Feeling very "xin ku". Feel like confiding all my troubles to Kailing, Dionne or Esther.. But there's always some things that I can't say it out. Maybe I can pour out all my troubles to Kailing cos she is the only one who knows what's really going on and somehow i feel more comfortable talking to the same sex. Now listening to Jay's "An Jing". Makes me feel even more sad.. Some more this song reminds me of someone. I...

Haiz... I have to pass up 2 reports by Fri. Dunno wan to do it seperately or do the same one & hand it in. Right now, feeling quite stress.. My MS still very shaky.. Very worried.. I'm a maths retard.. Anything that related to Maths, sure flunk.. Juz can't twist my mind.. When i see maths, my brain automatically shut off... Very fast hoh.. Mmm.. think should end here now & get on with my report or else forever stuck...