Being one's boyfriend or girlfriend is not that easy. Its not all about love. One has to accommodate and understand the other. For my case, I think I have a lot of accommodating to do. Its not that I don't want to change. There are a lot of things for me to change and I can't possibly change into another person in such a short time. The first thing I wanted to change is stop being jealous of Sebrina. It is not an easy task because earlier on I also had been jealous of another person and I took about half a year to "do away the green eye monster". Secondly, I also have been trying hard to be happy so as not to make him think or worrry too much. He hates me for crying so easily but to me it might be a fast way of releasing all my unhappiness. Being reprimanded or getting a scolding can make me cry like hell. An egg can perfectly describe me. Looks hard on the outside but watery and soft in the inside.
Choice In life, there are a lot of choices offered to us. when we are in pri sch with limited pocket money, we had to choose what should we had for recess. a bowl of noodle soup + soft drink or 1 plate of chicky rice without any drink? in sec sch, we are given a choice to choose the subjects we liked. after O's, we had to choose poly or jc. if we opt for poly, which are the courses that we are eligible. and now, i had to choose to leave or stay. well, in fact i had already made my choice. i chose to stay due to certain reasons. but as days go by, i started to feel uncertain about my choice. every morning, i drag myself to work. it feels terrible. going to work, seeing those faces that irks me (@ least things are not so bad for the time being), putting up a false front etc.. the future down the road seemed to be so unsure. it gave me a feeling that i'm travelling in a car with heavy rain pouring outside, whenever the screen wiper wipes the windscreen, the vision gets better. but...
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