Being one's boyfriend or girlfriend is not that easy. Its not all about love. One has to accommodate and understand the other. For my case, I think I have a lot of accommodating to do. Its not that I don't want to change. There are a lot of things for me to change and I can't possibly change into another person in such a short time. The first thing I wanted to change is stop being jealous of Sebrina. It is not an easy task because earlier on I also had been jealous of another person and I took about half a year to "do away the green eye monster". Secondly, I also have been trying hard to be happy so as not to make him think or worrry too much. He hates me for crying so easily but to me it might be a fast way of releasing all my unhappiness. Being reprimanded or getting a scolding can make me cry like hell. An egg can perfectly describe me. Looks hard on the outside but watery and soft in the inside.