Yippy... Finally finish my MS assignment lo. Now can concentrate on preparing for exams. I have to work very hard especially on my MS (the subject I hate most & also the subject I fare most badly). Today, Esther ask me if i regreted choosing Logistics. I reply her without thinking. I told her I regreted gettin' into a business course. Well seriously, I also dunno if I regreted. I had tried to like this course but is like nothing interest me. Sometimes, I think that I'm much more luckier than Dionne, Esther and Kailing. They seemed to be so stressed out while I'm so "carefree". I dun dare to think what I want to do after gettin' diploma. I heard that in Logistics line, it is quite stressful. Actually my dream job is something related to food. No matter what is it about. As long as it concerns about food (cos I like to eat). Since young, I have been changing my ambition. From scientist to lawyer etc... It was till when I'm Sec 3 that I knew what I want when I grow up. I develop the interest on studying about food and began to work towards my goal. But this dream seems to be drifting further and further away from me. From what I know, there's no part-time course related to it. And I also have colour blind (I guess most of you dunno abt it). Being colour blind, it is even harder getting into the food science industry.
Choice In life, there are a lot of choices offered to us. when we are in pri sch with limited pocket money, we had to choose what should we had for recess. a bowl of noodle soup + soft drink or 1 plate of chicky rice without any drink? in sec sch, we are given a choice to choose the subjects we liked. after O's, we had to choose poly or jc. if we opt for poly, which are the courses that we are eligible. and now, i had to choose to leave or stay. well, in fact i had already made my choice. i chose to stay due to certain reasons. but as days go by, i started to feel uncertain about my choice. every morning, i drag myself to work. it feels terrible. going to work, seeing those faces that irks me (@ least things are not so bad for the time being), putting up a false front etc.. the future down the road seemed to be so unsure. it gave me a feeling that i'm travelling in a car with heavy rain pouring outside, whenever the screen wiper wipes the windscreen, the vision gets better. but...
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