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found my long lost pri sch fren - junwen. still remember that i had a crush on him.. LOL.. always made fun of his height.. cos he was slightly much shorter than me.. now found him on friendster, felt shocked and relieved at the same time as i had been finding him since i sidned up for friendster.. well it muz be fate that brought junwen, kailing and me back together.. hope we would keep in contact and will not ever lost contact again and wait for another 6 years to reunite again ;)

feeling so sick today.. had a running nose. the mucus does not seem to stop.. throat does not feel good too.. ARGH.. i had stomach cramps in the afternoon.. its not that time of the month. perhaps i ate foods that were sweet, sour, hot and cold at one go.. bb told me not to go help papa but if i did not go, no one would help him.. besides i dun wan mama to go down.. cos dun wan her to overwork.. i guess i will not be able to take "off" on weekends unless there are urgent matters..

juz fetch mama back from hospital not long ago.. luckily there's nothing serious or else.... yesterday night she said that her mouth and legs felt numb.. then my aunt ask me to call for ambulance.. i was so scared that she would suffer from a stroke.. cos there's no telling signs when the stroke wants to come.. plus mama's health is not that good.. keep crying on the way to the hospital.. but somehow i still can remain calm. she was admitted for one day to do some checkup and discharge today.. now i realise that neither mama nor papa can fall ill as there are the "pillars" of the family. if either one of them fall ill, the family will have problems...

woke up very early this morning to go jogging.. feeling so tired right now. juz came back from sch not long ago.. mama thought i was going to take supp paper again.. felt so disappointed when she said that. i only need to re-take one subject and she assumed i still have to re-take other subjects. actually i went to school to play badminton. i din play much cos i hate badminton since young.. so i juz sit around there watching my friends or playing bb's GBA. after the game, we headed to century square for a late lunch. i almost starved to death.. ate yong tau foo and felt really full... later i went to sembawang music centre to find Pachelbel CD.. *GLEE* luckily i found it.. or else i would regret that i did not buy when i first saw it.. jas & merv say that its tooo expensive as the CD only contains one track.. but i lurve it VERY much..^_^ bought two skirts from ebase.. i was torn between whether to buy the skirts or one skirt & a blouse. in the end, i chose 2 skirts as now...

i took calculus supp paper today. A lot people asked me how was it. i juz replied that if i really failed the paper again, i might as well commit suicide. when mama heard about it, her expression changed immediately.. in fact i was only joking. yup i noe you dun like to hear about these kind of things. if it really happen that i failed, i had to accept the fact that i'm a maths idiot. there's nothing else i can do.. went swimming with jas. actually is not swimming, is soaking in the water.. LoL.. it has been years since i last swam.. the water kept entering into my nose when i went underwater not more than a few minutes.. there was an instance that i feel like i'm drowning.. i thought that i gonna die.. i oso made up my mind to book my advanced theory since papa ask me to do so.. anyway there's no harm doing it right. but the test date was on 14 jun and i was not free cos i will be SHOPPING in KL that day.. LOL.. speaking of KL, i'm looking forward to it cos my co...

sunday besides helping papa today, i went to Swiss Hotel to listen to a talk. It was quite boring for me as i had to sit there for 4 hours++. my butt was really painful.. plus i was going to fall asleep anytime. i'm not really interested in the topics they say. all they were trying to do is to influence you in joining the company by telling you how to make money go into your pocket easily. seriously, they are more suitable to become dicators (juz like Hitler or Mussolini).. its more like trying to brainwash you.. their voices are damn loud.. as if that all of us were deaf.. some of you maybe wondering why i went there since it was so boring for me. i had promised my aunt earlier that i would go there so i had to keep my word.. though i could slip away in the middle of the talk, i was embarrassed to do so. so towards the last topic, i went to the toilet and Robinson to find my bro. it was indeed a tiring day for me as i woke up at six plus to went jogging with my sis..

i'Ll bE jOblEss aFter nExt tUe.. dUn aSk mE wHy.. I'm tOoo tiReD tO saY aNyThinG.. WeLl thErE aRe pRoS & cOns.. PrOs ArE: 1)I'lL hAve mORe fReE tIme tO kEeP mY fRiEndS aNd Bb cOmPanY..(I'm sOrt oF nEgLecTinG tHEm) 2)I cAn Do mY oWn tHInGS.. - sLAcKiNG @ hOmE & jOgGinG bY mYsElf.. cOns aRE: 1) nO mOneY.. I STil nEeD tO bUy jEanS etC anD nEeD tO bUy fOr bB tO eAT.. 2)cAnnoT gO kBox. No gReAt s"pOre sAle... pAy hP bIlLs.. sO sHOuLD i gET aNotHEr jOb?????

tOday i sUppOSe to gO shOpPinG wiTh dIonnE bUt eND uP gOinG tO K-Ster wIth hEr fReNz.. ActUalLy, U wEeKly hAs a cOupOn fOR 5 fRee hOuRs, so wE go lO.. Not bAd.. JusT tHAt iT iS tOooOOo cOld.. tHoUgh I bRouGht a JackEt aLong, i sTilL aLmosT frEeze to deAth.. ThoUgh tHE wEaTher wAs hOt, tHerE's nO nEeD tO fOr thEm tO on The aIr cOn aT fUlL bLust ma.. ARGH.. WE ARE NOT MAKE OF ICE!! pIty dIoNNe aNd HEr fRenz cOs tHeY dIn bRinG tHeiR jAckEt alOnG.. tHey sAng All kIndS oF sOnGs.. rAnGinG fRom eNGliSh tO oLdiEs.. LOL.. tHat tIMe gO with sIhuI tHey aLl,iT sEems tO bE sO lImiTeD.. MaybE wE Or (I) aRe sTiLl nOt oPEn tO eAch oTheR As mUcH as I oPen Up tO dIOnnE & kAilIng.. CoMpaRinG Kbox,K-sTer & Partyworld, I sTiLl pRefEr kBox aS tHEir rOoms aRe mUch bIggEr aNd seRvIce Are mUch beTtEr ;P

i tHink I feEl a lOt bEttEr nOW.. aLwAys haVe to sEe thE bRiGhtEr sIde oF lIfE oR eLSe iT wOUld bE tOO bORinG aND sAd.. I aDdEd 2 nEw tHings In thE bLog.. 1st- hOw i am fEeLiNg nOw. 2nd - tHis wEek sChedUle. The sChedUle aLloWs yOu tO sEe wHicH dAy i'm bOOked and wHicH day i'm nOt.. thIS maKes yoU to mAke bOoKiNg wIth mE a lOt moRe eaSier.. =P At tHe saMe tIme, iT aLsO hElpS me tO rEmeMbEr whIch aRe tHE dAYS i'm bUsy.. hEhE.. I'm vEry fORgEtfUl.. sO i nEeD a tAke dOwn & neEd pEoplE to rEminD mE cOnstAnTly..

mY rEsuLts wEre oUt yEsTErdAy.. It cAme tO mE iN a sUddEn mAnNeR.. I dID nOt hAve aNy "xIn lI zUn bEi @ aLl".. WeLl JusT aS I eXpeCtEd, I faIled cAlcUlUs.. YeAh.. I wAs sAd aBouT iT.. sAd bEcaUsE I fElt lIke a fAilURe.. I hAd a HiStoRy of fAiLiNG mAthS sIncE i wAs iN mY pRimAry sChoOl. I tHouGht One dAy I wOulD bE pRo iN thIs sUbjEcT oR aT leAst LIked tHE sUbjEct. WeLL, The dAy nEvEr cAMe Or rAthEr iT wILl nEvEr cOme.. tHe sEcOnd rEasOn wAs I HAd a BRo sTudYiNG A mAThs bEfORe.. @ lEasT i shOuLD GEt A D InsTEad Of F.. I'm rEaLlY "xIn hUi yI lEn lE".. AfTEr sTudYiNg fOr 13 yEars oF mAths, I rEaLised tHat I'm a mAths iDiOt.. I wAs qUiTE sUrprIsed tHat I cOuLd sTilL tAke it qUitE eAsy.. For sOme PeOple, I gUEss tHeY wOuLd cOmMit sUcIde LonG lOnG aGo.. EverYtIME wHen I fAilEd, i WoUld tOld mysElf That tHinGs wIlL bE bEtTer nExT tIMe rOund.. I wAs tHE oNly wAy tO cOnsOle mYsElf.. bUt I fiNd That thIs iS nO lOngEr eFfeCtIvE.. I cAme tO rEaLise I'm nOt gOoD IN...

Here's my second part of the story... SeCoNdArY sChOoL dAys Turning 13 was another stage in my life. I entered Deyi Sec Sch together with KL, KZ and a lot of my other primary schoolmates. I became much more closer to E . We did almost everything together. But these memorable moments did not last long until D came along. I still remember when I was in Sec 3, I had a major fight with E. I refused to apologise to her.Why? I may be a strong-headed and a stubborn girl but partly I dun think it was my fault and she always wanted the other person to apologise first even though it was her fault. Everyone thought it was D's fault as she sided me and she became much closer to me. In fact it was not her fault. I shared much more similar things with D than with E. Eg: the taste of clothes & thinking. So therefore we are much more closer. During the cold war, I grew to dislike her. Dislike the way she behave etc.. It took months for E and I to patch back. I have my happy and sa...

mY lIfE I have a sudden urge to blog again. jUst nOw while I was my way home, memories of my childhood, primary and secondary days life flooded into my mind. I would like to say I'm much more luckier than a lot of people. Mmm.. Its time for me to reflect what I had done in this 18 years of life. cHiLdhOoD mEmOriEs I was pampered by a lot of people. Every year my mom would celebrate my birthday without fail.. Though I do not remember clearly but I still have photos that I celebrated my 1 year old birthday. My cousins and grandparents were there too. During the first few years after I was born, my grandma looked after me. From what I heard from my mum, my grandma had a hard time looking after me. I was not those kind of playful type. I only drink milk while I was sleeping. Whenever the grandma tried to feed me when I was wide awake, I would cry like hell and she had to coax me to sleep before she could feed me. Luckily my grandma din suffer much under my hands cos one of m...

yEstErdAy wEnt bAcK tO scHoOl tO hEar thE fInal yEar sTudEntS to pReSenT tHeiR FYP pRojeCts.. It is rEalLy a MajOr pRojEct. yOu have tO uSe wHat yOU hAd lEarNt In yEaR 2 & 3. fOr exAmPle, pArEto cHarT, fIsh bOne dIagRam, cRitiCal pAth & lOts mOre... bUt mOst Of tHEm, i hAd rEtURnEd tO tHE LeCtuRers.. aFtEr tHE pReSenTatIon, aN eX-TP LogIsticS sTudEnt cAme And sHaRed uS wIth hEr eXpeRiEncE on wOrkIng aNd sTudYing LocAllY aND OvErSeAs.. She Told US hOW shE cOpe eVErytHing wHen sHE wAs aLone In aUstrAlliA aNd U.S. BesIDes tHat, sHe hAd lEarnT aboUt thE dIfFerEnt cUlTurE oF dIffErenT pALcEs. sHe sAid tHat, If wE wErE eVer gIvEn a cHancE to sTudY or wORk OveRsEas, GRAB IT. cOS oPpOrTunIty oNlY cOMes oNce.. @fTer sHE sHArEd So mUch wIth Us, i sUddEnlY dAwNed On tHaT i nEeD tO GEt a dRivIng licEnSe!!! aFter thE tAlk, Jas, sIhUi & i wEnt tO oRcHard. @t tHEre wE bOughT nAnCy's BirThdAY pReSent.. fEel so bAd aBout iT.. HEr biRthday hAd bEeN alrEady oVer fOR a MontH++.. bOugH...

hAd bEeN sLacKinG fOr tHE paSt tWo dAYs.. In f@cT i HaD aLot oF tHiNgs To dO..BuT iS "lI Bu cHonG xIn" i hAd alReAdy pLanNed wHat tO dO dUrIng this HolS.. i WanT tO gO KbOX!!! sHoPpIng sPrEE!!! lOl.. LaSt wEeK Jas mEnTiONed ABoUt gOinG to sEnTosA.. I wAs lIke hAh... bUt I dIn sAy iT oUt.. sHe tOld Me tHAT sHE wOuLd To mAke sURe i wOUld gO.. aCtUalLy, i dUn mInd gOinG.. bUt i aLwAys haVe tHE iMprEsSiOn tHAt sEntOsa iS a PlaCe fOr tHOSe sPortY pEoPle.. And i"m tHE kInD wHo LIKe tO sTay aT hOme or gO sHoPpINg sPrEe... sO i tHinK i dO not sUIt That pLaCe. bUt nOw i hAd tO put aLl mY PlAns On hOld cOs mY sTudEnt's eXams aRe rOunD tHE cOrnEr aNd I thInK sHe wOuLd bE HAvIng mOrE lEsSonS.. sO i gUesS i Had To sTay aT hOme fOr tWo wEeKs bEfOre i cOulD bE fRee.. bB sAy hE wIll aCcPmPanY mE tO jOg nExT wEeK.. cOme tO tHink of It, i dUnNo iF i cOulD rUn cOntInouSly fOR aBout 200-300 meTreS bEfOre i bEcAme bReAThelEss.. It hAd bEeN tWo YEars sInce I laSt jOggeD.. iN tHE pAst, ...

I'm feeling damn down.. Today's Calculus was damn tricky.. I know what to use but dunno where to start.. When I came out from the examination room, all my friends were discussing answers.. I was hopping that a hOle would just open and swallow me up.. It really dread me hearing them comparing answers.. There's one thing I know for sure is that I'm really going to take supplementary paper. Nancy console me that I would definatly pass. bUt I know myself. If i said that I'm going to fail, most probably it would. If it did not turn out to be true, maybe God is helping me.. I remember once I said that, I had nOt "fallen down" real hard.. tHis time round, it going to happen. Though to some people it mightthink it is alright to take supp, if I am given a choice to take supp for PP and calculus, I would definatly go for PP.. I'm really not good in maths.. I hate calculations. Though many people said that Practice makes PERFECT , I dun believe it. Cos i had alre...

tOmOrrOw iS thE sEcOnd pApEr.. CaLcUluS. fEeLIng sOooOOoOOOo sLacK nOw.. I hAd sTudIEd uP tIlL tO diFfEreNtIatIon.. thOsE qOutienT rUle, pRodUcT rUle eTc.. sIaNz.. i HATE LoGaRitHmIc fUncTioNs.. sOoOoo diFfIcUlt tO dIfFereNaTe oR iNteGrAte tHEm... i GoT a "yU gAn" tHaT toMorRoW'S PapEr wOuLd nOt bE sOooOOoo hArd.. mMm.. aNywAy.. i GoTtA gO and sTudY lE.. uPdATe l@ter...

eVerYoNe aRoUnd mE sEeMs nOt tO bE lOoKIng so fIne.. bRo bRokE oFf wItH hAnNah. kAizHonG aLwAyS sAid tHaT hE is sAd bUt dId nOt wAnt tO tElL uS wHat hAppEn. kAiLinG sEeMs tO hAvE sOmE pRobLems wItH aNdY (i'M nOt vEry sUrE, jUz gUeSsInG bUt i hOpe tHat i'm wRonG).. It sEemS tO bE i'm tHe mOst lUcKy oNe amOng tHeM.. mMm.. aLl oF tHeM aRe tRoUblEd bY tHe WoRd - LOVE . wElL i mUsT sAy tHat , sIncE yOu cHoSe tHaT pAth, YoU hAve tO cOntInUe to wAlk dOwn.. tHeRe mAy bE sOme dIsapPoIntmEnts aLong tHE waY, bUt i'm sUrE tHerE wIll bE hAppIneSs wHeN yOu cOntInUe tO wAlK doWn.. dUn gIve uP.. yOu'Ll nEvEr KnoW whAt wOuld bE tHe EndIng iF yOu gIve uP hAlfwAy aNd iT is deFinAteLy nOt wOrTh it.. bEloW tHeRe'S mSg fOr yOu *=+~ mSg fOr kaiLinG *=+~ ==== lOvE cAn'T bE mEasUrEd.. yOu maY tHinK tHAt yOu "puT iN" moRe tHan hIm iN tHis rElaTiOnsHip.. buT tHeRe'S No wAy yOu wIlL kNoW wHo "Put iN" mOre. I wAs oNce lIke yOu tOo.. I aLwaYs fEeL tHat ...

tOdAy is bB's biRthdAy. aCtuaLly wAntEd tO gIve hIm a sUrPriSe bUt iT tUrNeD oUt tHat hE gAve mE a SurprIse.. hE cAllEd mE WhEn i wAS sTiLl sLeEpiNg.. hE tOld mE tHat hIs cOm sPolIt aNd hAd tO gO dOwn tO sIm LiM.. hAiz.. At fIRsT tHouGht I cAn gAvE hIm a surPrIse bUt eNd uP i tElL hIm wHat thE suRpRisE wAs aLl aBouT.. bUt hE nEvEr KnOW tHaT i"m gOinG tO tReAT hIm hIs fAvE PepPeRoNi pIzZa.. HaHa.. "mEi lIaO dAo bA".. fOr tHesE fEw wEeKs I kEeP tRyinG to sAve cOs i kNow hIS bIrThdAY wIlL cOsT mE a BoMB.. i sTiLl oWe hIm a BiRthdAy pReSent.. wE aLsO tAKe a pHotO-cArd bUt iT tUrn oUt nOt rEaLly niCe.. mMm.. dUnNo wHY I lOok sOoOoOo uGlY wHeN i tAke pHotOs wItH gUys.. Only lOoK gOod wHeN i tAke wIth mY gAl fReNz..

hEhE.. i cHanGed my bLoG sKin.. I LoVe tHE cIrCles.. LOOks sOooOo rEtrO..

sHIt!!! wHy my pImPles KEeP pOpIng oUt??.. tHe wEathEr wAs sO hOt!!!