had a sudden urge to blog before hitting the bed.
one more day to 23.
i no longer feel the happiness that i used to had when my bday draws nearer.
instead my heart feels heavy each year.
is not because i'm one year older.
i felt that its time for me to face the reality.
i know i should hv done that long ago.
but i just refused.
the world seems to be cruel.

i used to think why ppl cry so hard when they lost their loved ones in dramas.
and now i finally understand.
cos they are no longer with us. for that instance, you can feel the emptiness.
for the past few months i had heard deaths of friend's/ parent's friends loved ones.
i empathised them. cos once gone, it will be gone.
though there will be memories, but memories will fade as time goes by.

death is just like love which often comes uninvited.