Choice

In life, there are a lot of choices offered to us. when we are in pri sch with limited pocket money, we had to choose what should we had for recess. a bowl of noodle soup + soft drink or 1 plate of chicky rice without any drink? in sec sch, we are given a choice to choose the subjects we liked. after O's, we had to choose poly or jc. if we opt for poly, which are the courses that we are eligible. and now, i had to choose to leave or stay.

well, in fact i had already made my choice. i chose to stay due to certain reasons. but as days go by, i started to feel uncertain about my choice. every morning, i drag myself to work. it feels terrible. going to work, seeing those faces that irks me (@ least things are not so bad for the time being), putting up a false front etc..

the future down the road seemed to be so unsure. it gave me a feeling that i'm travelling in a car with heavy rain pouring outside, whenever the screen wiper wipes the windscreen, the vision gets better. but after a few seconds, the vision gets blur again with huge drops of rain.

when will this heavy rain stop? or shoud i seek shelter somewhere?