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while on the way back home today, questions has bee swirling in mind. finding & giving excuses for things happening in my life. or rather work. 1. am i enjoying my current job? ans: mmm... couldn't give a definate ans. i have a love & hate feeling. demoralising feelings come & go every other wk. esp when you know what is going ahead for the rest of the wk. i believe most of us feel this way. but i couldn't deny that i enjoy the feeling of satisfaction & victory when i manage to pacfiy my countries by obtaining what they wanted. but this feeling only stays a while. i need more of these coming! recieving appreciation from counterparts means more than my boss recognition (usually is the other way round). i'm grateful to have met people who have help me along the way. sharing valuable knowlwdge which this will stay in you. i'm much more confident than before. now i know what my boss means: "i have seen a change in you. you're no longer the shy littl...
recieved my new purchases. was randomly searching korean earrings online & came across this webbie http://www.fashionjewelrytv.com/store/ stuff feature is the same its display. fast & prompt service. reasonable price & free postage! in fact, there are many other designs which i lurve but were out of stock. guess will be placing my second order soon = more spending >. also bought 2 pairs of fake eyelashes from another webbie which came in the same time with the earrings too. yep yep.. i'm getting more vain.. 世界没有丑女人，只有懒女人。 so 我不要懒到变丑女人
i had a dream this morning that i flung my jap oral. weird. . very weird. xx & i decided to start our conversation course in may. so i have 4 months of freedom till then. i'm dying to go for a holiday. and already have 1 in the pipeline with poly gang on 21 Jan. a short getaway. at least a short one. but the "annual" long vacation is yet to decide. there's some changes of plans. its up for me to make the final decision since he already compromise by sponsering. but this means no japan this year. indeed it was a big disappointment! work was chaotic. some re-shuffling will be done. hopefully by this week. my trade remains untouched. no conclusion for system updates. if 1 day this were to go, then i'll be too free. taking up another trade at this point of time is meaningless. was browsing through jobstreet last night .. with my resume half-way done. hahaha.. will get it done soonest.
sweet mail to end 2010! he's such a darling! looking back 2010... personal the most challenging task was completing japanese course which i thought that i could not make it. took up pilates but gave up halfway. BUT, i still do learn from online videos once a while. still learning to love my enemy. cos understanding comes from love. you might believe that you need to understand another to love them. the truth is you need to love them to understand them. work i had offically took over the lead in black sea/emed region. apart from the encouragments/thank you emails recieved, i also had my fair share of scoldings from them. really nasty that made you de-moralised.. BUT, i have to perserve so that i could gain their trust & support. still learning the ropes to be a better negotiator. resolution for 2011 1. complete jap converation courses 2. JLPT 3. slimmer me to prepare for 2012 4. bridging commuication with the country PMs
was clearing some of the stuff last night & realised i had so much beauty pdts which are yet to open. most of them are for the face. heavy but good investment! empty all the masks to put them in a shoe box to save space. no more beauty pdts spree at least for the next half a year (i guess). cos i have everything extra. from sunblock to moisturiser. i love the smell of the cherry soap bar from joanne. can't bear to use it though. cos i can't find it SIN. me with curls again (pardon me for the sleepy eyes). no worries. i'm not perming my hair again. decided to get a curler which i'm now waiting for it to arrive (xmas dift from HJP). i borrowed eva's to experiment it 1st. HJP said i look diff in curls. yah.. just like how i look diff in specs. 0.0 waiting it to be longer so that i can do the natural wavy style.
i just realised the last post was on 4 dec & now is near end 2010. time to review for the year & setting new resolutions. somehow, i did not sense much joy in this dec. much thoughts filled my mind which hard to penned down here one by one. to summarise, 2011 seems so uncertain. new expectations/ challenges/ changes. on the other hand, i'm really glad & thankful that both xx & i managed to scrape thru this year exams.. it was really a "phew". for the 1st time, i'm not keen to know how i fare. 2 more years of regular course before i completed the whole program (if nothing goes wrong). but decided to take a year break. of cos, i'll not lost touch cos had conversation & JLPT courses are in the pipe line. and not to forget, my usual dose of jdramas. mama's bday falls in Dec too. a treat at Ding Tai Fung. sharing a few pics my 2 faves - 虾仁 fried rice & 红烧beef noodle fatty miu's $10 bcm which i teased her for days and not forgetting the ...
an encouragment mail to end friday :) i still have another one from Romaina on the same day :) such encourgment mails do help to spur me on. sometimes we do not need to cc bosses in every mail sent. people who appreciate your gesture will surely find their way to the boss. your good name will still reaches their ears. likewise for terrible things which you had done. last wk, i had mustered all my courage to ask for a con-call with the person i fear most. and it ended well! i could feel the our relationship had improved since then. i hope 1 day, i would be confident enough to pay a visit personally :)
randoms DIY a new hair colour cos couldn't stand the black hair any longer. it was a temporary solution before i get a proper one from the salon when CNY draws near. got liese plantium beige. mmm... it has been quite some time since i chose a lighter dye. perhaps i 'll go for 1 tone lighter the next time round. this was the 1st time i chose to do it DIY. Liese hair dyes are easy to use. i love the additional hair serum which was included. it really soften the "damageed" hair alot. milky foot was to remove the dead skin which i'm to lazy to do a foot scrub. and now the skin has started to peel. and i enjoy peeling it myself.. muahahaha 1st sat w/o lessons. the feeling of sleeping in late is damn shiok! clear up my wardrobe to make way for new clothes. tsk tsk. thereafter, baked some choco muffins. cos sis mentioned it has been a long long time since the last time i baked. initially, we wanted to do banana flavour. but due to time constraints, we bought choco betty ...
Me: J, my vietnam reefer biz has expanded. they have move on to do other commodities. J: what? Me: medicine (giggling) J: what kind of medicine? Me: dunno. they just state commodity is medicine. J: i din know vietnam has the R&D infrastruture to develop pharma. Me: i know what's the medicine. J: wat? Me: their own creation- snake in cheap wine Me & J: LOL
the Devil & Angel in eneri Devil: i dun think eneri can make it in this year finals. look at her! she hasn't passed 1 single of her kanji test. she also took ages to complete her composition assignment. let alone the oral part. Angel: No. i know she can make it. though has been slacking through the whole year, her preservance keeps her going on. Devil: she even flung her 1st test! Angel: but she did very in her 2nd one!? Devil: i just dun think she can make it. Angel: i believe she will! cos once her mind is set, she will preserve till the very end.
Two is better than one. one of the most beautiful & touching wedding video i ever come across.. almost moved to tears and today's msg from God wants You to know application was: that you've been talking to God too much, and not listening enough. Time to learn how to listen and hear, because God has been answering you. true.. i hv been asking Him every morning to listen & grant my prayers. and its time for me to learn how to listen & hear on what He wants to tell me
hadn't been updating for quite some time. thoughts of future & uncertainties flow into my mind everyday. work recieved the annual self assessment last mon which i have to give my future in this co for some serious thoughts. there weren't any push factors that made me want to leave. but at the same time, i need to bring my career up to the next level. efforts have paid off when boss told me that my name was bought up during her meeting at bangkok for my support rendered to reefer growth. i really felt comforted & never expect a small fry has her name mentioned! personal life life is still very much in control. i still do things that i enjoy. the worrying factor now is the jap exam in nov. in fact, the last 2 yrs of jap was easy peasy & the real challenge comes this year. REALLY hope that i can breeze thru & get over and done with (though i don't pay the sch fees). also time to go thru my 2010 resolution list to see if i had them fufilled.