As much as I wanted to start a relationship with him, I found myself holding back. An INVISBLE force is holding me back!!! I still yet to settle the issues with charles and his mum. It was hard for me to blurb everything to his mum. Things still have to be handle in a dipolmatic, calm and sensible manner. As for kailing and all my dear friends out there, it is natural for you all to be worried about me. i really feel appreciated and touched by it. i believed that i'll know whether he is a good or a bad person when the time comes. for now i think i'll take the road with lots of traffic rather than the expressway. Fancy me making my own life difficult huh? i believed obstacles will make stronger than ever.

* Road with traffic - aquaintances -> good friends -> close friends -> best friends ->lovers -> couples
* Expressway - aquaintancs -> lovers -> couples