These few days really sianz.. I can't use computer or phone in the night.. Its like taking my favourite things away from me.. As a result I can only watch TV to pass time... My insomnia is also coming back again.. Its so "xin ku"... If there's no any nice TV programmes for me to watch, I have to wait till 3am den can fell asleep.. In the past, I usually hogged on the phone and bro used the com.. But NoW? Not only he uses the phone, but also the com.. and I left with nothing.. >________< Last Sat was the most miserable.. I only use the com for a while cos bro wan to use den he still hogged on the phone... Plus the TV programmes were damn boring... I sat on my bed and stare at the blank space and began to ponder a lot of things.... It is very bad when I start to ponder about things. Cos all the things I ponder are all negative...
Sometimes it really occured to me that if Me and him are really compatiable? Compatiable as in characters.. I know there's no two persons in the world that have the same personalities or character.. But sometimes I can't help thinking we are so different.. One seems to like to stay @ home, the other one seems to like to go out often.. Whenever I think he would msg me or call mi on the hp, it would not happen.. If really happen, it is really a mircale.. His phone call or msg will come when you least expected it.. I can't help thinking like this cos it is the truth.. A sweet msg from someone you love can make a world of difference... I know what he would say that if he sees this... There was once Nancy told me that the one who can make you cry so terribly is the one you love most.. She's absoutely right about it.. Especially for my case, I can cry till my double eyelids disappear the next day..
Kailing always tell me to cherish what I have. Yeah I did cherish but things are not happening in the way I want.. I understand most things are not happening in the way we want to... For yesterday case, When I called him, it seemed to be like we had nothing to talk about.. Most of the time was silence.. It was really unbearable....... In the end I chose to hang up the phone........
Sometimes it really occured to me that if Me and him are really compatiable? Compatiable as in characters.. I know there's no two persons in the world that have the same personalities or character.. But sometimes I can't help thinking we are so different.. One seems to like to stay @ home, the other one seems to like to go out often.. Whenever I think he would msg me or call mi on the hp, it would not happen.. If really happen, it is really a mircale.. His phone call or msg will come when you least expected it.. I can't help thinking like this cos it is the truth.. A sweet msg from someone you love can make a world of difference... I know what he would say that if he sees this... There was once Nancy told me that the one who can make you cry so terribly is the one you love most.. She's absoutely right about it.. Especially for my case, I can cry till my double eyelids disappear the next day..
Kailing always tell me to cherish what I have. Yeah I did cherish but things are not happening in the way I want.. I understand most things are not happening in the way we want to... For yesterday case, When I called him, it seemed to be like we had nothing to talk about.. Most of the time was silence.. It was really unbearable....... In the end I chose to hang up the phone........
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