i have been having dreams of grandma every now & then ever since she passed on.
the dreams are always so real.
diff settings but always with the same ending.

HJP asked if i had not put the episode behind me.
well, i couldn't say i did not. but on the other hand, it doesn't mean i had not accept the fact.

guess the issue was i just chucked the whole episode into a "box" containing unhappiness.
this is what i always do when encounter unpleasant incidents in life. in simple terms, i surpress my emotions. hence, i could be very indifferent on situations.

これが私です。