giving a vision greater than you (me)

i never consider to give myself a vision which is greater than myself to accomplish. neither do i want others to give me this. cos i do not want to feel pressured in order to fufill the given vision or rather mission. i'm contented to pass each day w/o worries abt tml. thats explain the reasons why i couldn't ans questions like:

:: how do you see yourself in 5 yrs time?
:: what are your goals in life?
:: what do you want to achieve?

these are the questions which i do not want think abt it. my ans will always be what if die tml? seriously, i never bother abt my achievements. but i hv to admit that sometimes i do envy other ppl's achievements.

during 1 of the occasions, hjp pop a question abt what i hope to accomplish by the age of 30 cos he's hitting the number next year. a long pause sets in. i replied, perhaps to fully master the japanese language. based on the current situation, that was all i could thought of. i'm not career-minded who wants to earn big bucks/ climbed up the coporate ladder. job satisfaction is the key. the feeling of clinching a deal carriers/cust. the feeling of bosses appreciating the hard work i hv put in.

i had gave myself a mission to accomplish by 30 unkowingly by replying hjp's qn.

to fully master the japanese language, would i able to achieve it?
perhaps i could.