last sat, i visited grandma with hjp after my jap lesson.
yup. she was admitted to the hospital again on the day i signed my appointment letter.
i did not know until my cousin called.
she was alright when i left home.
i asked myself why. yes i was happy that i could get into schenker but not so when i heard she was admitted to hospital again.
i felt like i was being make fun.

when mama called later in the evening, telling me that grandma's condition wasn't good
and told me to bring some stuff over to my uncle's place while they prepared her to discharge as she insisted.
at that moment, my heart sank.
though i had a feeling she would pull thru the night but the memories i had with her kept flashing back.

and indeed she had pulled thru 2 nights.
but refusing to eat or drink.
i wonder how long can she hold on.
it hurts me to see her in this plight but what can i do?

sometimes i wished she could just go peacefully.
but she is not a child of God .
all i can do now is to pray for

- mercy/peace and healing hand upon her
- i could master and hv the courage to convey the msg to her in teochew knowing the adults will object.
- more time
- God will touch her heart